On March 5th of 2016 (in one year!) one of my abusers is up for parole. I am angry, outraged, worried, torn, but mostly terrified and scared. My biological mom is up for parole after only 5 years! She took away a decade of my life and more.
She is a child abuser. She raped, sexually assaulted, beat, starved, and destroyed me. She took more than just years from my life. She took away my childhood, my trust, my commitment. She has made me fearful and doubtful. She is a child abuser and I believe that child abusers should never be released especially in a world full of children!
I am so terrified but not for me, but for my kids. I am scared that if she gets out on parole that she might want to get revenge. I'm scared that she may take one of my kids from school or a grocery store. She is defiantly not one to go quietly. She found a way to manipulate the system to draw out the trial for 4 years by changing lawyers constantly. She smiled in her mug shot picture, and she never even said sorry. She lied about what happened, she denied it, and only pleaded guilty when they reduced her charges for you to plead guilty.
I read some of the articles that were printed out to read other people describe what I went through, what my siblings went through, is just heartbreaking! The way others described it, how they perceived it...
http://www.heraldextra.com/news/local/central/provo/convicted-sex-offender-gets-up-to-years-in-prison/article_95e0e32b-2319-59f2-abd1-01cbd7ad75c6.html
"It reads like an X-rated movie," Johnson said.
"The acts that were perpetrated against these children are beyond belief," she said. (Laycock)
http://www.heraldextra.com/news/local/central/provo/woman-headed-to-prison-for-child-sex-abuse/article_da890314-16eb-5d73-9af5-3ddba5e0df8a.html
Johnson said Currie had allowed two other men to abuse the children before she married James, and described her behavior as cruel and depraved.
"She truly ran a house of horrors with these children," he said.
Before pronouncing the sentence, Laycock disagreed with the defense, stating that the abuse had been truly terrible.
"These children have been abused and sexualized in ways that no one can understand," she said.
To read these and read what they said is sad but it honestly didn't feel like anything else! They have affected me from childhood to adulthood. Why the hell should they only get 5 years in prison only to be released? To breath fresh air when they took mine way. To have freedom which they so cruelly deprived me of. To eat fresh food when they would starve me and deny me food?! I believe people can change, but I do not believe that child abusers especially sexual child abusers should ever be let out. Treatment or not they took advantage of a child. A defenseless, vulnerable child and they destroy them simply because they can. It's disgusting. I have kids and I need to make sure they are safe. If my abusers are let out, am I safe? Are my kids safe? In one year nothing can change, or everything can change. I will take precautions if my abusers are let out, I will do all in my power to keep my kids, to keep my family safe. I will not let what they did to me in the past affect how far I have come to be who I am today. I hope in one year, I can attend the parole hearing... I hope that I can have a say. I might be a survivor of terrible abuse but I am their victim. And I hope I will have a say or a voice in how their decisions affected me. And how they still affect me today!
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