People constantly ask me how can I be so open and talk about my life without too much concern about how people may view me. My answer is simple. I simply don't care. Why? Because if it wasn't for my childhood I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't be so care-free and open minded.
I grew up with secrets. My whole life has been about secrets. I had to lie about my abuse, I had to lie about being a lesbian both in school and to my adopted parents, I lied about my depression, and so much more. I don't like secrets. That is why I am so open.
I can talk about my troubles as a kid in foster care, my abuse, being a mom with abuse history and breaking the cycle because I don't want to forget how I became who I am. Everything that happened to me happened for a reason. Everything that I've done, I've done for a reason.
Not only do I want to remember where I have come from but I want to continue to be a better person. I want to be the best mom I can be for my kids. A good friend that is loyal and reliable. I want to give what was never given to me. I also want to help others who have been through abuse, rape, incest, etc. and show them that even if you have a shitty past, even through all of the abuse, you and ONLY YOU get to make the best of it. Only you get to decide how you live and how you let your past affect your future. I may not be a billionaire in a big house with a lot of friends. However, I do have a family that I love, a roof over my head, a job, food, and lifelong friends that I have known since elementary that I wouldn't trade for all the friends in the world!
I truly believe we make who we are as adults. We get to decide to be the worst kind of society or the kindest of society. Our pasts do not define who we are. We define who we are going to be.
Stay true to who you are even if it is against the grain. Always be yourself! And never let the events of life past, present, or future define who YOU get to be!! <3
My past is an experience I don't wish on anyone but defiantly not one I would change. I am strong. I am not my past. I am a survivor. I am a mom. I am bisexual. I am women. I am kind. I am ME!!
